Love me like you Love the Sun, Scorching the Blood in my Vampire Heart.

~~~

2009-03-16T06:52:00.000-07:00

Back from the dead now?

A Surprise?

You shouldn't have...

withshockandawe.blogspot.com

Dead!

2008-12-04T22:23:00.000-08:00

Dead,

You heard the news that you're dead,

No one ever had much nice to say,
I think they never liked you anyways,

You're dead,

Take from the hospital bed,

Wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol by the hand,

And wouldn't it be great if you're,

DEAD!

Balanced sleep again.

2008-11-22T07:20:00.000-08:00

Well, I finally stopped sleeping late which kinda is good. Yeah, stopped me from getting addicted. Holidays? Actually very enjoyable, going on three different holidays and one of them is with my Australian cousins. Yeah, it would be nice to see them again. There is nothing really much to talk about now, I'm just laying back and saving to by a graphics card. Thats all. Will tell you all when something interesting happens.

Something I doodled.

and it gets better...

2008-11-20T12:28:00.000-08:00

Its been 2 days,

And I only slept 2 hours,

It keeps getting better,

Lets never sleep,

Its 5 in the morning again,

So what?

DOTA!

Mr.Frodo?

2008-11-19T03:14:00.000-08:00

Pengerang is paradise.
Everything has never been so perfect. Everyone is so muhibah. Everything's a so cheap. And I love it all. So I'm back, and I'm playing DOTA again just to past the time. Red Alert 3's been out a while and yes, thrashing people internationally has never been so sweet.

"Well, I'm back"

There was unintetional romance in the hotel I was staying. Hope it stays with what I left behind.

J

So Long and Goodnight.

2008-11-13T21:11:00.000-08:00

I'm off to Johor.

Bye guys.

"Tee off time"

Lucky to be coming home again.

2008-11-13T08:29:00.000-08:00

Well, schools over. Goodbye 2008, hello 2009.
I already made some resolutions. Here's some.

Participate in lots of sports.
Design Red House Logo.
Audition for Teacher's day.
Never forget to do homework. (That'll be hell)
Make sure class wins cleanest class at least once.
Help Shaun. (inside story)

The fact that today, nobody came to school was just ruining the 'I won't see you till next year moment.' Although I'll be seeing most of them alot but still, it was in the moment. The whole day was *for nuts. Just played cards, listen to music and an occasional drawing session. The girls went for some talk in the auditorium and came back with the coolest calender. Haha. I want one. After that we were just with Ms Chee, telling lame ass jokes and giving riddles. It's her last year.

When the bell rang, it was hugs all around, especially to our form four mates. It was after all the second last year before the fianl goodbye. There were also hugs for some form 5's. They were after all the closest to us and we really will miss them. I remember saying "I hope to seeing you in the future." and he/or she said "I hope so." There was a moment where someone said "Well the train stops here." followed by a pause. Damn sad. Good luck to all.

I wish you all the best of holidays.
Soon my train will come to an end and my stop will be next

*for nuts= boring/shit/crap.

2008-11-12T02:21:00.000-08:00

In fact, screw the last song. Finally realised it sucks. The tune's all wrong and the lyrics are stupid.

So it was a fairly regular day except well, talentime or talentine as written on the projector. Amanda, Anir, Samuel and Sheryl are performing and damn they did well. They performed Bat Country by Avenged Sevenfold and it was great. But out of pure unluckyness, the judges didn't like it. Must have thought it was inappropriate. Don't know talent. Don't blame me, everyone's saying the same thing

The rest of the performances were Amanda's and Rekha's medley, violin gang (Just Strings), Chen Leong, dancing, tap dancing, techno dancing, singing bout dead humans and piano. Actually I only liked a handful. Can't blame anyone for form one's not knowing what's talent. Hariz's band did well too though, except--

Well, I presented all chem project and turned up well. Although it was only me and Sher, we did well. Three cheers for sweet quality. Well that's about it. Blog next time. Tmrw's the last day. I'm gonna miss you all. It's my last year next year. I mentioned that like a million times.

XO

"Plus we whistle"

J

Harmony

2008-11-10T03:36:00.000-08:00

Well, school's almost up and it's going to be my last year in two months time. I'm so not ready to go to college. I feel so small. If I were given the chance to repeat form four, I would. Can't imagine myself seeing everyone for the last time. But till then, let's make it great.

I've decided to do law. Back plan is psychologist. Yes, it's arts but I'm in scienec but guys got to have a backup plan right? Teachers having been telling me that I'm arts for a long time. Hope their right. I'm scared of my future.

So, anyways, today was basically a bore. Played guitar and learned trigonometry. Yes, teacher's still teaching but I know she wants the best for us. Thank you. Tried to teach Jin Wern how to play Collide but it just wasted 2 periods. Borrowed my guitar home. Well, out of the 3 packs of cards brought to school, half survived. Kena confiscated ni.

About last entry, the noise was my dad. almost shot him with the BB Gun. So, I'm fine. I've been working on something. I think it has a great tune, coz I've done it. Still, it's half done.

Was the Connection.

I've been holding on in this single breath,
The last thing,
I want,
For you to be the only one left,

From what you've told me,
A waking call,
From what you showed me,
That endless fall,
What can I do?

CHORUS

Setting up memories,
Putting the pictures of you and me,

Making dreams,
So angels can once again,
Breathe,

In that one short day,
A thousand words one could say,
Whom lost themselves in the length of time,
Be the one that brings back the ryhme.

Well, thats all. Till next time.

Held on too loose. Crushed way to hard.

2008-11-08T08:04:00.000-08:00

My bones have been cracking the whole day. The aches have been getting worst. I'm sleepy, uncomfortable and its Sunday. Since friday evening, I've been in school. Attended Unity day. Yeah, quite alot of guys came. Had quite of a jam session with four guitars. Fingers might as well bleed. After eating a damn huge pile of food, played cards, chilled and watched the sunset. Fine you can't see the sunset from school but.

Then we had the most disturbing activity. Solving the mystery of family murder and putting ghosts to sleep. We knew it was fake but, couldn't help but to look over my shoulder now and then. Filled with screams, creppy giggles and scary smiles but it was awesome and I loved it. When we finished it was already 11.30. Some guys went home, the rest slept over. School at night was hell. You'd never want to be alone.

We played football at abou 12. Yes, we like night games. Shit, heard a noise. From outside the room. Going to check it out...

I'm back. The happiness.

2008-11-06T08:40:00.000-08:00

Me and my damn long hair. But I don't wanna cut.

Well, my internet has been down of two weeks now, thus explaining the lack of updates.
You can imagine how I felt unable to complain to you good people about my suffering (all you guys do is listen, and therefore thanks.) Well, just to let you know, I'm back. Don't worry, the updates will be coming soon.

It's 2 in the morning. Gonna catch some sleep.

XO

J

Reunion.

2008-10-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm back.

The past few weeks has been alright. The only probelms were the number papers. Well, let's say calculators only help if you know what you have to type. Let's leave it at that. But I'd rather not talk about the exams. I think its shit now. Only have two papers left. They're unimportant.

But let's talk about friday. After a damn stressful Add Math paper, I got Rohit and Jason to go to Asia and eat wantan noodles (Rohit says mee but I say noodles.). In the end we slurp it up and talk abit before rushing to school. Bought a cool lighter at a shop. Then I went to Chen Ji's house. And there we played PS3.

To Mr Daniel Saw, do computers have blue ray reader? Well, I know you can get it but for about say 4k? There you go, I win. So there you go, PS3 is better.

Well, we played The Force Unleashed and GTA IV. Yeah, it was a good day. Just spent time admiring great graphic. Sorry guys, I'm turning nerdy. In fact, I want to play games now so catch you later. Going to play K.O.T.O.R.

XO

J

lucky bastards.

2008-10-17T07:39:00.000-07:00

No one expected the blogger to be online today when he should he studying hard at his home. But like most common people, he lied. And he is back.

So I'm all worked up for the exams. I seriously feel that I have to do well. I've been tolerating for months and months of naggng from the mother till I finally had this conversation a few weeks back.

Mum. Me. Dad.

Joon Hoe, you've got to study. Exams are coming.

Relax, its still such a long time away.

Study for goodness sake. (her catchphrase)

Listen to your mother.

Yes dad, fine.

(I walked upstairs and my dad followed)

Don't worry dad, I'm studying.

You know your mother, just study. Honestly I never liked studying but still, you have to or your mother will blow up again. And you and I hate her shouting.

I swear that really happened. My dad and me are so alike. I predict his every move and I have to like give advice to the brother and mother what to say when they talk to him, because I know what he or I would say. Damn cool right?

Yeah, so I really started studying. Despite standards set by my teacher, I'll do better. Still can't work out Chemistry though. But today, today English Exam got me fired up. It was so easy and so fun to write that I really felt like I should write a book out of it because it was so long. I swear my hand is hurting right now but still I feel accomplished. Yeah.

Ah fuck it, next monday's Add Math. Well, before I end, let me give a shoutout to all the lucky bastards of Form 3. Way to fucking celebrate, have fun but you'll regret it. I did, eventually. My advice, live life to the max from today, pray you die before Form 4.

Hope she's having the time of her life.

Nights,

Symphonies and Memories on Trial.

2008-10-14T07:35:00.000-07:00

I'm online. What a weird twist in fate. Well, spent the whole day playing Guitar Hero. Fingers hurt, I'm sleepy, bladder's half full and it's Tuesday. Perfect. Over a few weeks, I've writing while I should be studying and I've finally think that this piece is complete. I hope.

Trust in my Windbreaker

Has it ever occured,

When your shattered alone,

Hopeless hearts came,

Broken angels arose,

You watched the horizon the whole night,

And had that disturbed vison where you'd,

Never again see the light?

CHORUS

So help me,

Them depression has made me empty,

It's just that,

I never got their poison,

I never heard them breathe,

Still I'm kept forever,

Dying harder finding reasons to believe,

Won't stop me now,

Halt the funerals and weddings,

I'll wear this emblem on my sleeve,

And make look like its tragic, (people!)

Because it'll never make me leave,

CHORUS

Bridge

There is no reason now to say goodbye,

I can't lie to you,

Coz it's never enough,

What I have right now,

Place your bets gents,

Scream out aloud,

CHORUSx2

What is deceive?

And how'd you think I feel?

Make you wonder why I kill?

Break me.

(fade)

The song is about obsession. I've worked out the tune. I've imagined it as a rock song but playing with an acoustic, not so much. But at least I did it. BM's tommorow. Wish me luck.

Hey Monday-Homecoming.

Final Enrty of the Week.

2008-10-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

Well guys, it's been fun. We had great times didn't we? There were good and bad times. But now, its all about what we live by and what I strongly oppose, education. It's the final tommorow and I really got to study. We all have to in the end. Even if it doesn't seem important, it will.

School has been hell. I don't think I can take anymore revision. It can seriously make me faint. I'm not sure, but of all subjects, I fear BM the most. Maybe because that I didn't really pay attention. Well, I'm going to do some late night studying. Wish me luck, I'd know if you did.

"There was never any hope, just bullets"

Killing is the only probelm solver these days.

Thanks for listening.

Interrupted.

2008-10-11T07:06:00.001-07:00

Well, Today I wanted to take a long nice study for about 3 hours (seriously). So, mother went out to buy lunch. Was just getting started (no, really I was going to study), when the phone rang. Shouted at the brother to get it and next thing I knew.

Meng, Me.

(From downstairs)

Joon!

What?

Mum fell down near the store.

Again? Fuck. (quietly)

You got to go get her.

You mean walk?!

Yes, quickly. She's waiting.

Great..

Quick.

The store was like 2km from the house. Yeah, I've walked there a few times but still, it's a drag just going there. So, after that we had to go hospital to X-ray. Despite my countless pleas to let me drive there, she got my uncle to drive her there. Hello, mother? SJMC is like just 500m from our house, I won't get caught driving.

I waited for like 2 hours for the results of the X-Ray and caught a bit of studying. When we got called to the viewing room. The first thing I said was " Just give it to me staight doc, do we have to cut it off?" Yeah, then everyone looked at me. Could help myself. After that, we found out it was only a sprain. But you know, my mother's old and her bones are brittle as toothpicks.

Well logging off.

*On Friday for Bio, we did the cigarette test of nicotine. Got really, really high. Lungs were pain as hell for a few hours. It was awesome.

At Days End.

2008-10-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

So with exams coming up and finally reading the exam timetable, I've decided to start studying more and focus on Add Math. Sounds impossible but I'm gonna try. So, I might forget you all. Already in regret. In fact, I'll study now.

Actually I'm writing this post to tell you all this.

Think and see.

"There was never any hope, just bullets"

I'll reveal the meaning tommorw. Night.

OtherWorld

2008-10-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. It's official.

I'm totally disturbed by Silent Hill.

Its one of the few things that keep me up at night. At first I found it interesting. The deaths and its connection to the main plot were brilliant. But after a while, things got disturbing. The latest game is called Silent Hill Homecoming. I can't say I don't like it but it's just too much for me. But still it's a work of art. It doesn't scare you directly like most horror games. Instead you get scared by thinking about it. Reading its storyline on Wikipedia is enough to think the horror. Here's some pictures.

This one, keeps me watching the ceiling past midnight.

That's scares me everywhere.

What the fuck is that?

Imagine all your friends were of the horrors you see. Imagine you had to choose to kill your mother. Imagine you were alone and never coming home.

Chemistry. was never this hard. You lied to me.

The Best Drama---Ever.

2008-10-07T08:38:00.000-07:00

I watched The Green Mile. It was a very good movie and I think everyone should watch it. It's very sad and gets you very angry and happy too. They're is not proper way to describe this movie. It's something you got to feel. Watch this to see true miracles. Thanks.

A surprise?

You shouldn't have.

Hehe.

...and Blood

2008-10-07T03:10:00.000-07:00

The exams are in two weeks people. None stop hours of studying awaits us. Let us smile and punch it in their faces. We'll my classes time tables are always classing with the other o levels class, so I have no confirmed exam timetable. All I know is that I have Physics, Biology and Chemistry plus Math in one day.

That must be one heck of a day. YEAH! Oh yeah, and Mr L told us that our English is gonna be like harder than Literature. Damn, just gets better.

"It's difficult. I set it really hard"

Thanks alot.

I'm going to go study now so catch you guys tommorow. No, I won't forget you guys. Love you all.

Bombs..

2008-10-06T02:12:00.000-07:00

Well, today I had school since a week of holidays. I was getting ready for serious painful classes of Add Math when heaven saved me, Ms Chee didn't come. That's 4 free periods today. Bang, happy me. I was like talking with everyone around class. It was all about, holiday activities, hairstyles, rabbit laying eggs (ask Yvonne). Yeah, it was a good day. Nothing much to report.

Yesterday however, packing bag like mad. Cari kertas sini-sana. Nak tidur pun tak boleh. Yeah, but at dinner, my brother and I were discussing what name should he have. The choices are:

Frederick Choy Joon Meng.
Wilbur Choy Joon Meng.
George Choy Joon Meng.
Paul Choy Joon Meng. (Paul Choy)

Vote now and stand a chance to win (what am I giving?) a free punch in the gut if you win.
My dad is the best in the world. I going to get this jacket.

Damn nice right? Totally crave the hourglass. Too bad its gonna be a couple of weeks before I get it.

And Uncertain Celebration

2008-10-04T10:34:00.000-07:00

Pretty right?

First of all, I would like to wish a Happy 15th Birthday to Shirloo Ong Sze Loo.

She's my awesome ex-girlfriend who showed me what love meant in way I didn't know.

But we've drifted apart these last few months.

But she's got to focus on her PMR and I'm sorry if I broke her heart.

But not a day goes by since that day that I don't think about what happened.

I just wanted to say, whatever happens, have a great time. But still, study for the future that always wanted for you.

Always in my heart,

I've got it.

2008-10-03T09:28:00.000-07:00

I got it.

Oh yeah, I finally got it.

The Black Parade Is Dead!

I found it at some music corner at Pyramid today,

Thank you god, thank you. Yeah.

I've watched it already and its awesome.

Recommended for Everyone.

Buy it Now!

Damn, nice right? Hell yeah. Originally I went to pyramid with some friends. One friend slept in. But it's ok, sleeping's good. Who doesn't lik it. Well, someone went out for the first time in a long time. Its her birthday tommorow. And I remembered because I wanted to get her something but she kept saying no need. Anyone has any idea what to get for a girl? I'll say the girl's name when I shout it out tonight at 12.

Not Firsts, but of Miracles.

2008-10-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

I did it,
Goddamn I did it,
I studied chemistry,
They didn't believe me, they thought I was crazy,
But who's laughing now motherfuckers?

It's true guys, I really did study. Yeah, its important. Kids, study up, go to Harvard. Yes, It wastes your parents money but still I'll get you a job.

So today, was nothin interestin to talk about. I'm not sure whether to go to pyramid tommorow. Well, first, up to mum, if she wants to send me, and two, well I think I can't tell you. I think the most interesting thing today was that I ate longans. Yeah, thats all. Longans and ice cubes. Bye

J

A Day.

2008-10-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

Nothing much today.
Slept alot though.
And going to have dinner with the minister in a while. So catch you guys later? Thanks.

J

Continued.

So, the dinner was fine. Had to shake hands with loads of people. Dad was hinting the whole time to 'act like he control my life and I obeyed'. I tried my best, mostly and just ate I guess. The buffet was good, there were lots of food from the three races. The satay was the best, like honestly. Oh yeah, and there was this band coming around playing oldies songg with instruments. I got to see this huge chello. Like half a kancil. The weird part was that I was surrounded by important people and they weren't acting like 'I'm important, bow down'. It was creeping me out but still it was alright.

Had to leave early coz my cousins had to go to Kota Bahru (say hi to the relatives for me). Grabbed a few sticks of satay for the trip home and now currrently watching football with Dad.
Selamat Hari Raya for all, have a great time.

Daniel 'Blaze' Kreig

2008-09-30T04:54:00.000-07:00

So, I want to show you guys Number 202 in Organization 211. His name is Daniel "Blaze' Kreig. I sort of thought of his name from the word 'blitzkreig', a german phrase. And he turned out alright. I gave him hell inside him, as in he can unleash fire and monsters from beyond on people. He is basically destruction wherever he goes, or at least when he's angry.

He's the leader now as Number 201, is already deceased. He is set to have a leader-like personality, brave and always like to make decisions. But strangely, he like poetry. I haven't made a final drawing yet but I've got picures of what he is set to sort-of look like.

Yeah, I gave him a mask. Looks cool, to me at least.

I pictured his powers will be something like this, roughly.

Till next time brothers in arms,

(punches wall HARD)

2008-09-30T00:55:00.000-07:00

Doesn't my mum have to work?
Could she at least understand the meaning of holidays?

No.

Damn, motherfuckers.

J

"So how was Christmas for you guys? Did you all get lots of nice black t-shirts?"

The Evil..

2008-09-29T12:40:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, not in mood to blog, will do when I wake up.
Really drunk. Been drinking.
Honestly I'm surprised I can type or think.
Bleu, Hic.

Night.

J

Whole New Day

2008-09-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

So I'm clear from saying what I did yesterday.
And now I'm feeling great. Except the fact that my mum didn't have work today so I couldn't work on my book and had to do Add Math. But to delay the studying, I slept like from2 to 5. And now she's cooking and I'm playing computer games. Yeah, I'll have no definite content for this post but I'll tell you guys at night maybe 12? Ok, see you later.

J

Yeah, I found this video. And its about my favourite band. When you watch it and think, its funny.

Message to the Good Lord.

2008-09-28T09:54:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. I found myself urging to say something to the lord. Its like my heart is telling me to say something. Something that has been kept for a long time. I just didn't know it. Its gonna be a boring post, I don't want to force you all to read but I'm glad to accept any believers.

I'm going to say Emo things. Maybe you shouldn't read.

Dear God, its Jonathan Vincent Choy Joon Hoe.

All my years alive, I've done things that I would regret and wish and pray so desperately at night to take back. All the forms of might-be sins that I've done, it's all so painful. Everytime I do something bad that I think that you may punish me for, I add to the list in which I think about everyday. I want to live a good life, to show that I can be somebody, not a killer but someone who lives like life is but a long walk. Its not choosing the easy way, but the right way.

I've heard of hell, and I can tell it's not what I want to feel forever. I've asked from you signs to show what is right and you have given me enough to be a believer. And this life, will be always done properly, I've shown kindness, sympathy and generousity. I've also shown revenge, hate and selfishness. But not one moment goes by I try to balance the good and bad. There is no way to say this but, I want to go to where you are, heaven.

I've appreciated what life has given me, and there is no reason not to. And I know, that I've always respected your descision in fate, you know that. Just trying to tell you that, whatever evil I do, I didn't want it.

To all my friends,
I'm terribly sorry if the things I've done bring you pain,
Its who I am and no one's perfect but there're some whom I had deemed perfect,
I've tried to act 'cool' but who doesn't?
But most importantly, I'm happy to have known you all.

To my family,
I've brought you pain constantly,
I can help it because I'm forever trying to prove what's 'fair',
My mind has been cloudy and sometimes I want to just start life again from when I was born but i won't,

To the person whom I loved,
The mind can be deceiving,
I'm sorry for the torture,
I've sinned so badly that its hard to sleep everynight,
But I realised know, through you. Thank you.
I'll love you forever.

I'm forever grateful you could hear what I said and I'll appreciate it.
Amen.

Hey, I'm sorry if this seems Emo. Well, it obviously is. But I read something, and I had to clear my soul. Thank you, goodnight.

All Your Needs for Thoughts that Mean Something.

2008-09-28T07:58:00.000-07:00

I believe that everyone has thoughts that others have never seen. These thoughts are impossible to make other people see or imagine. And sometimes, things get disturbing.

Thats how I created Jason Edward Coleman a.k.a The Sin. Jason is number 209 of Organization 211 in my Comic Book World. I chose to give him the ability to project his mind. Jason is set to have a dark, cool personality. and more of a lone wolf.

The power to project your mind is a very strong ability. The only limitation is your imagination. The thought of seeing your worst fears (your family dead, a little girl killed) alive and in front of you, up to the will of Jason, now that is torture.

I'm spending the week writing the next few chapters. I hope to reach chapter twenty but still at the same time, study a bit. I made a promise. I'm logging off. Sunday night.

J

The Start of the Century.

2008-09-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

So, I've decided to start studying. Don't laugh. It's not funny. Studies suddenly, seem so important so I'm going for it. I'm going back. Today, was basically an eat, sleep, play day. Nothing much, ate at a shit bufffet japanese restaurant and now home watching football with dad. Well, later.

Just wanted u guys to know what I plan to do.

J

Suicide is a bullshit way out. If you know anyone that's gonna do it, help them. People should love themselves, like how I love you all.

Keeping Something that Might Inspire.

2008-09-27T02:17:00.000-07:00

Everytime I watch a movie, I'll always watch it a few more time to catch anything I thought I missed. But even watching over 20 times, I still feel that I'm missing something. This makes me wonder if life really has these missing parts that we never know about. I'm not sure but I'd rather not think about it.

And I'm not sure but I also find myself re-watching mot movies to actually feel the what the director is trying to make me feel, if a person dies, would I be sad or just say 'ok'? The movies can really play alot in your life. Being held at gun point can really change your life. Like G Way says it,"no matter how ugly the world gets or how stupid it shows me it is, I always have faith."

Thanks for listening guys. Appreciate it with all my life.

J

The Time of our Lives.

2008-09-26T09:01:00.000-07:00

Its the Prefects Annual Dinner again. And every year it gets better. We did sketches, plaayed songs, when crazy, danced and cam-whored. It was a great night. I have some pics, the girls have the rest. Well, here goes.

Note : My hair is highlighted gold. Its so lala but whatever.

Daniel Saw, James Bond. Best dressed.

Rohit, the Boss.

Daniel Saw again.

Hui Yee, me and Dan who rushed in.

Yvonne, and me.

Olivia and me.

Gary, poser sial.

Eugene Goh, man.

Ashwin, and Andrien.

Before going home, Gary's posing with my guitar.

Well, Livia has the rest, or isit Amelia, girls la. I'll get more. Nights, it has been a long day.
Happy holidays, my malay friends. Happy raya. Jom, balik.

..in the dark place.

2008-09-25T05:25:00.000-07:00

Dark Caves. Original, Unique Name.

Yeah, I just got back from Batu Caves yesterday. Could barely even type. Well, you guys. Have you ever been to the Adventurous Part of Batu Caves? This is the part where you guys say "Whaaaat?". Apparently it exists and quite tough. Our Wardens were Suva, Jeff and Warren. At the start it was ok, we were all in these construction yard helmets with headlights, I had mine down, covering my eyes to look cool. After that we walked around and saw some rocks, look here look there.

Talk about stalagmites and wall runners. After getting past that, we had to crawl to get to the other side of this chamber.And its like damn sempit. You have to like lie flat to move. Look up and hit your head. And your arms will bleed coz the ground ain't exactly smooth, like jagged rocks. And covered in bat Shit. Yeap, it was a day full of Shit. It got my Military shirt brown from white. And I dare anyone to try coming for this. So after crawling, we had climbing. Yeah, it was a guys dream well, most guys. Had many people hurt, but we got through and admired the big(huge) chamber in the caves. It was beautiful.

The cave was alive.

Yeah, me, Nick, Madeline and Kellie were like a single group and we got through. Congrats to the girls who did it. Never thought how they did it. Yeah, after climbing the sharp rocks (still bleeding), we had to cross muddy water (or shit) and finally we reached the sky light. It was amazing, its like the only light you can find. Like from heaven. Yeah, terus my friends and I ran to the top and acted like conquerors. Yeah, if only it hadn't been for the bat shit, it would have seemed better.

I can't honestly explain the feeling. But its great. Everyone should go. Don't miss out.
We walked back and got out, took a damn long shower (we're covered in shit, what do you expect), bought food (coconuts, chips, sweets) and then got on the bus, coming back was nice, coz we were all eating. I loved yesterday.

I know it way too late, but Happy Birthday Jessica Yap and Syakila. You awesome people.

I got some pics. Not taken. But this what you'll see.

This is the lit part. Other parts are pitch black.

This is the damn cool, skylight. It lights the way.

The Wall Runner. Damn scary when you see one suddenly.

Freaking wall of cockroaches. Damn hell shit disgusting.

There the hell many miilipedes.

There were bats, except they live very high up and I didnt have a ladder.

Well, thats all,

And I was...

2008-09-24T07:44:00.001-07:00

My internet's back. I thank the lord.

But I'll blog tmrw. Too tired.

J

A Thing not Planned

2008-09-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

My heart's too caught up with affairs of the heart to cope with this kind of shit.
A few days ago. I found out that my brother is going to become a probate. Why didn't anyone tell me? Ok, listen close and hard. That is the worst mistake the board will ever make, trust me on this. I'm trying as hard to make this not happen, at school and home. There is no way I can have a sibling in the board. I just won't. Sorry, guys. Its personal.

And I thought they would tell me.
Backstabbers.

J

Work it Out

2008-09-14T06:29:00.000-07:00

Well, the weekend has gone by, again. Yeah I didnt do much, just hang with the cousins, eating dinner every day. Yeah all of them are puasa-ing so can't do anything fun, just play DOTA. Sorry guys, no other choice of entertainment. I'm not sure if i have any undone homework. Oh, well. Monday.

I just bought Spore the othere day. It was fun till the the Sapce Stage where u just fly around and use up gas, I mean petrol. But other than that it was fun, I created this Worm like Cell, then it grew to this sort of mini Devil Creature then it evolved into a chief of this gang and they all went and discovered fire, building buildings and killing all the other creatures (teddy bears. etc). Yeah, fun time.

I'm just currently resting, taking my daily dose of Silent Hill. Came back from Carefour a while back. Carried a lot of things. Really tired. Waking up for football later. Logging of to the sound of Michael Learns To Rock. I'm off.

XO

J

Silent Note (title)

2008-09-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

I screwed up guys. I just had to get food poisoning the day before the chem project. I couldn't help. I just hope I've done enough.

Well, today was ok, everything went pretty fast. Gema Merdeka was short and sweet. Yeah, way to go celebrating after 2 weeks, after the real day. I took my charcoal and slept. Could have sworn I heard Indian, Chinese and Malay rapping in the distance. Yeah, but its alright.

Today at English, Mr L told us the difference between Canada, Malaysia and Montreal.
Canada, Ambulance comes, everyone moves to the side.
Malaysia, Ambulance comes, everyone follows behind.
Montreal,Ambulance comes, people don't give a damn. Like saying in their minds "Who ask u to drive?" Hilarious.

Thats all.
Love

J

Got a New Song. Not Telling.

2008-09-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

Dear people.
I'm sick.
Food Poisoning.
Damn chinese food.
Well, good night.

(cough)

J

Asleep or Dead?

2008-09-07T01:34:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. I've been noticing alot every year I get older. My friends from old are different. Not physically morons, but they're doing things that they would never do now. Are they Asleep or Dead? Maybe I'm just paranoid. Ah, fuck it.

Well, today is Sunday. Yeah, well I was busy yesterday so I didn't really want to blog at all. Tommorow is the day of the installation. I'm not feeling well so I dunno. Hope Adriz is ok. Yeah, the new Exco's are great. Next year will be the best. Hmm, the new comic is going well. Oh, wait. I never told you guys about the comic.

Its about an organization, 2.11. Most of its members are dead and the final five have to stop the shadows from Anti 11. Well, all comics are basically save the world, so yeah. The comic's dark and gothic. So, expect death and stuff. I like it. So basically.

Organization 2.11=Good.
Confessors=Bad.
Shadows=Bad-der.
Anti 11=Shit Bad. Like they would blow up the children's home.

I'm off. (Leadership Camp 2009?)

J

Tripping on the Edge.

2008-09-06T00:41:00.000-07:00

Its a Saturday.

Sorry guys, nothing to say.

I'm puasa-ing with my cousins, really tired.
Till, next time.

J

Unholy Confessions.

2008-09-05T00:12:00.000-07:00

Well, I sat down today just as I thought of another chapter in my mind. I was looking at my friends since form 1 turn into Exco's. Me? I didnt want to be, exam next year. Too stressful. There this moment in which all of us sat next to the piano laughing away. It was just perfect, if any of you saw it.

It also got me thinking about next year. When we leave, it will be horrible. And I cant afford not to see them anymore. but now, I don't think I can get used to my friends bossing me around. Rohit being group leader, and Gary being asst. offence recorder. Its just me and Esther who don't feel bad. But I dont think I took it harder than Adriz, he took it the worst. I'm gonna do building forever. I'm fine guys. Its god's wish.

Next year is our last year guys, lets make it great. Remember us, we few, we happy few.

Apocalypse Suite.

2008-09-04T06:07:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. Today? Regular day. Actually I liked English alot. We were given assigments about comparing and contrast-ing. And all of us had free topics. Being in Sigma, many topics were given such as,

Comparing classmates which was a piss off.
Comparing Jonas Brothers and Metallica. JB has tight pants.
Comparing Boys and Girls. Birds and the Bees.

Yeah, we had a few laughs. And the day ended.
And I learned more hokkien words. Sheryl is going to Indon. Have fun girl.
Thats all, logging off.

XO

J

Caption.

2008-09-03T06:09:00.000-07:00

Perfect Day: Nothing to report.

I have two bodies, the stiffer I am, the faster I flow.
I am an hourglass.

J

Maybe Six Feet is Too Far Down.

2008-09-02T05:05:00.000-07:00

Yo, muchachos. Ok, that was lame, so Hey Guys. Today was fun, well it started off with math and actually quite enjoyable. Daniel didnt bring his text book so I laughed at him. I kept harassing him and playing with his 5X5 cube that no one can do. Besides that, me and Sheryl were like constantly arguing about obsessions and lies and truth. It was a debating day.

Now lunch time, was great. It was me, Rohit, Crystal and Yvonne talking hokkien and cantonese, even though we were supposed to do duty, yeah, we prefered learning chinese. Here's what I learned,

Lu Ca Ci Le Pai Cha Bo. I think that means You have been a bad girl or something.
Lu Ca Ci Le Pa Kai. I think that means bad brat or something.
Lu See Lai. Eat shit?
(Crystal shouting very long sentence in hokkien.) Cheater..coward..bla bla bla.

Yeah, its a good day. Well, thats all. We're getting installed next week.

XO

J

If Angels cried Blood and Heartstrings part.

2008-09-01T02:51:00.000-07:00

Well, I watched Camp Rock yesterday. I decide better to watch it early so that Samuel wouldn't kill me on the Monday. He hates these things I know. He was like "If Jonas Brothers comes to Malaysia, I'm gotta but a sniper rifle on ebay." Funny, but if I'm not the JB.

"The movie was quite disappointed, nothing compared to HSM. Maybe coz, the choreographer was working on HSM 3. Well, the only thing I got from the movie was learning a new song and knowing how evil some girls can be."

Sunday and Today was basically me just winning money from my family. Yesterday my bro bet with my dad and me that he would stay up the latest. In the end, he slept at 1, I slept at 4, my dad, 7. So, I won 5o bucks minus 5 bucks I bet on Arsenal's 3-0 win over Newcastle. Then I won 50 bucks from my dad that I would out golf him. Yeah, a good weekend.

XO

J

A first for the beginnings.

2008-08-30T09:50:00.000-07:00

I wrote a song. You can consider this is the first complete song I wrote. I've worked out the tunes and balance and stuff. Hope you guys liked it. Not emo, and there is a life story in here.

I'm Gone but Hold on.

Baby, dont lose hope if I'm not here,

For I'm always here,
And please don't cry,
Coz I never liked your tears,

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Everytime I think I'm closer to your heart,

I'm pulled away too far,

And forced to think,

Things that dont matter,

Just to pull us together,

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CHORUS*

Well I'm gone but Hold on tonight,

Tell me if I'm gone today,

Will there be another chance?

Is there a reason honey?

I'm going home,

Sorry but your all alone,

So hold~on,

hold on.

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Oh, Bright burning sun beams,

The lies about the way starlight shnes,

And light is darker than dark it seems,

But I'll go finding it,

Oh baby, I'll go finding it,

(for you)

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CHORUS*x2

I looked for the few,

The special few,

For happiness,

But I realized,

I had it all in you,

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CHORUS*

Hold on~

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(with broken hearts and melodies)

(leave behind so I can breathe)

(fade)

This song fetches about 3+ minutes. Wanted all your opinions. Have gotten some good ones in school.

Log on the system.

2008-08-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

Avril was good. Girl's tired. Can't blame her. PAS was too much. But she sort of rocked the stadium. I was good, coudn't stop playing with the Iphone though.

Well, I'm at the computer now. I just finished watching the Merdeka celebration and I'm going to watch Newcastle vs Arsenal too. Well, the Merdeka Celebration was good, the VIP's didnt show much spirit but maybe Y.B but thats alright. Not insulting anyone. Just to make myself patriotic,

MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA. Happy?

Well, the week was good, its been a while since the holidays but still aint used to waking up at 7. Everyday was basically waking up for lunch. I'm still trying to catch up with the Add Math and perhaps Math, but I'm alright. The rest of the week is well,

Samuel insulting the Jonas Brothers
Amanda getting migraines
Talking a lot to Avisha and Sheryl
Anir doing his SOS impressions (hillarious)

Well, thats it from the guy that has'nt slept in a while. Going to watch football. I'm logging off. See you guys. XO.

..it came back.

2008-08-21T22:09:00.000-07:00

Well guys, I'm positive that nobody knows that this blog exists but Blogger. So let me just add content. Well, its the holidays. Friday to be specific. Just yesterday I was thinking, yeah its Monday, long way to go but here I am. I havent really started on my homework, but I'll do it. I'm responsible.

The past few days were nothing much to be worthy of writing about. Trying to sum it all up.
I played electric guitar,
I played acoustic guitar,
I played classical guitar,
I played DOTA, yeah I was bored so sorry.

Well thats it I guess, oh yeah and there was this new video of RA3 and its awesome.
I'm going to watch Wall-e with friends, I'll see you guys later. And by guys I mean the Blogger guys.

And then..

2008-08-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

(transmitting)

My friends, I'm back. Miss me? I hope you did.

(fade)